I’ve been on Lexapro for a month now. It’s different than I thought it would be.
Different in a good way.
I am not a walking zombie, but I can also get through an episode of Extreme Makeover:Home Edition without needing an entire box of Kleenex. This is a good thing.
Rapunzel has even noticed a difference, and after a week of asking questions I told her what was going on.
She started by telling me that I was smiling more, laughing more, and wasn’t as crabby since I started taking my pills. I agreed. Then I told her that the pills were anti-depressants, and asked her if she knew what it meant to be depressed. She said she did, I asked for more than a yes. She said it meant you were sad all the time. I agreed with her basic explanation.
We talked about how I was feeling, when I started feeling the way I did, why I went on the medication, how long I may have to be on it, and that she won’t necessarily have this problem just because I am. She didn’t ask that last question, but if I was in her position I would worry about it, so we talked about it.
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With all the doctor’s appointments I’ve had in the last few weeks my head has not always been squarely on my shoulders. There have been quite a few days where I felt like I was off in LaLa Land and it took a real effort to get even the tiniest of things done.
While I am still worried that I may have some sort of cancer, I am trying not to focus on that. Six months of waiting will not kill me, I hope.
I am honestly glad that they found fibroids. I have been having pain for so many years it’s become the norm. When the Dr. asks me how often I have pain during/after intercourse it’s easier to say how often I don’t have pain. I’m not opposed to a hysterectomy whether it be partial or complete. I would actually welcome it. Other than for hormone levels, I don’t need the parts anymore.
So unless something major happens in the next six months I am taking the “wait and see” approach.
It may be a long bumpy road ahead of me and I’m sure I won’t arrive on the other side without my share of bumps and bruises, but I have my safety harnesses in place, so I will arrive on the other end whole.