I’ve been on Lexapro for a month now. It’s different than I thought it would be.
Different in a good way.
I am not a walking zombie, but I can also get through an episode of Extreme Makeover:Home Edition without needing an entire box of Kleenex. This is a good thing.
Rapunzel has even noticed a difference, and after a week of asking questions I told her what was going on.
She started by telling me that I was smiling more, laughing more, and wasn’t as crabby since I started taking my pills. I agreed. Then I told her that the pills were anti-depressants, and asked her if she knew what it meant to be depressed. She said she did, I asked for more than a yes. She said it meant you were sad all the time. I agreed with her basic explanation.
We talked about how I was feeling, when I started feeling the way I did, why I went on the medication, how long I may have to be on it, and that she won’t necessarily have this problem just because I am. She didn’t ask that last question, but if I was in her position I would worry about it, so we talked about it.
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With all the doctor’s appointments I’ve had in the last few weeks my head has not always been squarely on my shoulders. There have been quite a few days where I felt like I was off in LaLa Land and it took a real effort to get even the tiniest of things done.
While I am still worried that I may have some sort of cancer, I am trying not to focus on that. Six months of waiting will not kill me, I hope.
I am honestly glad that they found fibroids. I have been having pain for so many years it’s become the norm. When the Dr. asks me how often I have pain during/after intercourse it’s easier to say how often I don’t have pain. I’m not opposed to a hysterectomy whether it be partial or complete. I would actually welcome it. Other than for hormone levels, I don’t need the parts anymore.
So unless something major happens in the next six months I am taking the “wait and see” approach.
It may be a long bumpy road ahead of me and I’m sure I won’t arrive on the other side without my share of bumps and bruises, but I have my safety harnesses in place, so I will arrive on the other end whole.
Mrs. Wilson says:
I’m happy to hear that you’re feeling better!! Your daughter sounds like a very understanding, very smart little girl.
March 4th, 2009 at 10:14 pm
citystreams says:
Lexapro is really great for the exact reasons you described. I couldn’t even tell a difference for the first two weeks and stopped taking the meds. There weren’t any loopy feelings. Then a few days later my doctor freaked out on me so I started taking them again. And like you said, I noticed small things, like windows of my old self again. I’m SOOOOO glad you’re feeling better.
Lots of my family members have had fibroids. No fun! I’ll say a prayer for you today!
March 5th, 2009 at 3:26 am
shannon says:
I am glad Lexapro is working for you. It worked for me for awhile but after a few months it stopped. I hope things get back to the old ways.
March 5th, 2009 at 5:44 am
SAJ says:
I’m happy to be a safety harness! Like a knee pad or something.
March 5th, 2009 at 7:15 am
BeachMama says:
Glad to hear you are feeling better, I know it isn’t a perfect solution, but it must be better than being super emotional. I know too many friends with fibroids, there is stuff they can do.
March 5th, 2009 at 2:54 pm
mamalang says:
I have endometriosis, and that pain during and after sucks big time (that’s sympathizing with you
) Luckily, my husband really does love me. When I had to have a laproscopy to remove a cyst, and afterwards the doctor told me I had endo, I cried. Not from sadness, but relief. Cause now I knew why.
I’m glad the Lexapro is working. And your photos have bee awesome
March 6th, 2009 at 6:17 pm